dalam lelah...

assalamu'alaikum dan salam sejahtera

there's this girl, saying this, after several times we've been chatting on the FB's chatbox...

' untunglah jadi fayyadh... '

and i replied her, just a slipped moment afterwards...

' apa yang untungnye? '

...she did replied this several minutes later...

' untunglah...ramai orang minat... '

i did smirked a bit later on, involuntarily...perhaps knowing how she can't really see me doing so, well its forgiven i think...

so i put this given fingers on the top of these marked keyboard, and having them move later on, as my conscious cerebrum interpreting several more question to ask..i really need this girl to be out of the box, thinking clearly...

so here's my question back then..

' apa yang sebenarnya untung bila ramai orang minat? saya dapat peluang menaikkan pointer ke tahap dekan? atau cita cita saya boleh jadi kenyataan? i mean, could they really help? am i receiving pleasure upon those? ' 

after several moments, she quitted the conversation quite fast, raising a white flag upon my question...we laugh, both of us (in the chatbox, she typed it there 'HAHAHA'...so i guess she enjoyed much talking to me)...

still, manner does matter...i did apologize since those were kinda harsh given...fortunate, she seemed to be okay with it...guess not a big deal for her after all...sorta jokes-to-assume perhaps...

well, actually...

i could be mean by those words, but thats it...things i do really insist on asking...

apa yang mereka nampak dalam keuntungan diminati ramai orang?

its rather hard, to be honest...when a simple flaws can be your early morning shout-calls, single mistakes that can really makes you 'imprisoned', imperfection of yours triggers bad-back-slimy-mouthed gibbon to noise up...and worse, sudden stupid silly stories born back on the halfway, spreading like germs...

(okay aku dah mula merapu...minta maaf)

~ ~

its hard to be me though...

being fayyadh's here are not that 'untung', seriously...

he failed on many things...upon his heart itself, he does budge a lot...

indeed this person having certain flaws, do mistakes often, and obviously imperfection little person...

he don't really got such things he wanted the most, he doesn't even have 'her' to pleased and be pleased, he is considerably sucks on studies, and people don't really care...

he is not that 'untung'lah...

hahaha

theres another person told me this too...

' you are really hard to guess on...unpredictable, calm and sometimes, do amused too...i really mean it, and those happened as a compliment as well...cause perhaps that kind of man are really hard to find... '

does that ever a compliment? i don't know how can it be, as i don't really see such things can be beneficial on me...

notacelahcerebra: aku ada masalah rumahtangga lately...masalahnya ialah, aku dah robohkan rumahtangga orang...Oo God, what have i done?? rasa nak pulas FZ laju laju masuk terbenam dalam laut kat Kuala Perlis...ini bukan lawak...haih~ i'm the bad person, no doubt...indeed a 'doctor' still need a 'doctor' when he sick...Oo Allah, forgive me...grant me will and strength to hold onto...i've sinned... T,T

 till then, assalamu'alaikum and have a nice day